aaaah've got a feeling!!

This past week was j one of those why me Lord kinda weeks, you know the ones where so many things go wrong and you begin to ponder your existence. As in, all of a sudden you become deep like you Socrates or something. Asking questions like “what is the purpose of my life? “, “Does God really see me?”

By Thursday I was soooo sad, as in depressed, down in the dumps, horrible to be around , complaining kind of sad. And did I mention I was in physical pain too? I have this horrid toothache (apparently I have a really really bad cavity and I have to have my wisdom teeth pulled)

I could not even find the strengh to pray, I felt very disconnected and abandoned and all I could see were my seeming imposiblities. and oh I worried!

Then I went to church this morning, Well, it started with the song that came on the radio when I got in the car(as you can tell, I have a thing for music, I honestly believe God speaks to me through song)it was declaration by Kirk Franklin, ( if you’ve never heard it, youtube it: Awesome message, awesome lyrics, awesome beat). Listening to this song, I began to feel something bubble up within me, a fight within my spirit. I was like you know what, I REFUSE to lose my mind over temporary circumstances; I refuse to become another bitter depressed female. I refuse to spend valuable time I will never get back wishing and hoping things were different. I WILL get through this.

That put me in the right frame of mind for service, which was off the chain as usual but the best part was at the end of service. You see, my pastor is kinda old school so sometimes he would randomly burst into one of those old gospel songs that they used to sing back in the day. The one he sang today was “I’ve got a feeling, everything is gonna be alright” (you gotta emphasize the “I’ve” like aaaaaaaaaaaaa’ve) and for the first time I truly believed I would be ok.

So right now I am about to start the new week, my circumstances haven’t changed. My insurance still won’t pay for my teeth, my car still is not fixed, I still have a failing grade in one of my classes. But my attitude has definitely changed cos aaaaaaaaaaa’ve got a feeling….

VOTD

This is a faithful saying:

For if we died with Him,We shall also live with Him.

If we endure, We shall also reign with Him.

If we deny Him,He also will deny us.

If we are faithless, He remains faithful;

He cannot deny Himself.

2 Timothy 2:11-13