Friday, August 29, 2008

Freedom Friday

I just realized

I am addicted to the internet. I was without internet for the past 2 days and I honestly did not know what to do with myself.

This weekend is going to be quite busy with a lot of social activity.
I have no intention of doing any school work this weekend and I kind of feel sorry for myself
I need time management skills or I am going to be in some serious trouble this semester
People in blogville are kinda cool. All these people that I don’t know offering me words of kindness…yaay for the body of Christ
I am growing up..The things that used to bother me don’t even faze me anymore..God is good
I have to return a bunch of calls this weekend or I am going to be minus three or four friends..forgive me guys

I like being a blogger, it’s a whole new world and I am learning so much plus my writing is getting much better..I hope

My favorite love songs are the ones about heart break; you know the ones where you can feel the singer’s pain. As in, you are right there with her. You almost want to ask Whitney/Mariah/Toni (whoever it is at the moment), “Girl, how you know my ex?”

I have to work out this weekend. This weight gain is no longer funny

Two weeks from today, at this exact time, I will be in Reynosa doing the work of my Father. yeaaaaaah!

VOTD(Thanks Uzezi)
Since you are precious and honored in my sight,
and because I love you,
I will give men in exchange for you,
and people in exchange for your life.
Isaiah 43:4

Monday, August 25, 2008

I get down, He lifts me up

Every time I hear that song it makes me feel 6 years old all over again. I almost want to get up and do the dance. Anyhoo, I am feeling much better today. I reread yesterday’s post and I am like wow, I was in a pretty dark place. I am almost tempted to delete the post but I won’t cos it will defeat the purpose of this blog.

Yesterday was the first time I publicly admitted that I had mood issues and boy am I glad I did. I feel more equipped and ready to fight this thing. In the words of Kirk Franklin “I am ready for the fight of my life”

So yea , bring it on.....
But You, O LORD, are a shield for me,
My glory and the One who lifts up my head.
Psalm 3:3

Sunday, August 24, 2008

Sometimes life aint so good...

This has been a very strange weekend. I really do not understand these past 48 hours. I started off this weekend being extremely excited for my first missions meeting. The meeting went well but then after that I don’t know what happened and I just started feeling really really down. Actually I do know what happened, I got attacked..and no I am not one of those overly spiritual people that blame the devil for everything, but I am wise enough to recognize an attack when I see one. I have this cloud over me that I cannot explain along with this overwhelming feeling of loneliness that’s just sapping away my energy. I couldn’t even make it to church this morning and I stayed in bed till 6pm. The problem with being in this kind of mood is that It begins to affect you physically. I started to feel sick. I finally decided to get up and go grocery shopping since all I had in my fridge was cheese and on my way back from the store, I heard this song on the radio and I just lost it. So here I am in the middle of traffic with meat and plantain in my backseat and tears streaming down my face and I have no idea why.

The reason why I know this is an attack is I have no reason to be sad. On the contrary, I should be excited, it’s the first week of the fall semester, I am much closer to my second degree. Also, in about 3 weeks, I will be standing in Mexico doing something I have always wanted to do and experiencing God in a whole new way. So why am I sad? The thing is, I struggle with mood swings and I guess I am having one of my episodes. I don’t like it, I am working through it, and I definitely believe I will be free of it but until such a time as that occurs, I have no choice but to ride it through.

I will be glad and rejoice in your love,
for you saw my affliction
and knew the anguish of my soul.
PS 31:7

Monday, August 18, 2008

Tea without Sugar

I am on a diet and I don’t know how that happened. It all started when I went to put on my favorite pair of jeans and they won’t button up. Did I mention it was at 6.30am and I was getting ready for work? I had to think up a new outfit in under 5 mins. I was seriously vexed in my spirit.

The goal is seven pounds by the end of august. So here’s to lots of sugarless green tea and little to no carbs. Fuuuuuuuuun

I personally think the Olympics are a collection of life lessons. Every competitor has a story that I believe is just there to make you reflect. My favorite story is Dara Torres, the 41 year old swimming champion (who, by the way, went to my Alma mater, Go Gators!!!). During her interview, she made a statement that resonated within my spirit; “You can’t put a time limit on your dreams” and how true is that? God is the only one that knows the whens and hows and I need to fully trust Him.

Its the last week before the fall semester starts which means Christmas is coming yaaay!!! Which reminds me, someone needs to figure out what she’s doing over thanksgiving break so I can figure out what I am doing

I am really not a fan of rap but I love Lecrae and the 116 clique. (116 is Romans 1:16), every song is a like a mini sermon. Amazing!!

This is going to be awesome week because God says so!!

For ye have need of patience, that,
after ye have done the will of God,
ye might receive the promise.
Hebrews 10:36

Thursday, August 14, 2008

How u gonna win...

Today was a good day. First, I finally saw my grades and I did great, so I guess they won’t be kicking me out anytime .
Second, I came back to my apartment and my power was back. Yaay!!!. I just had a spring in my step all day and it got me thinking....

Why is my outlook on life so dependent on external circumstances?

I mean, I have just been in a mood these past couple of days all because things were not going my way. Snapping at people, screening calls (my personal favorite whenever I sulk). I even refused to return a couple of calls because I did not “feel like it”.

A few months ago, I decided to work on becoming a person of integrity; letting my yes be yes and no be no, obviously these moods don’t help matters. The worst part is trying to explain to all these people why I did not keep to my word *sigh*

I definitely need to do better. My actions are not lining up with my words. I tell people God is in control yet I don’t believe it. Cos you see, if I TRULY believed it, I would not be fazed by the little things.

I guess the revelation for the day is that I really need to stop talking about it and start being about it..

For if the trumpet give an uncertain sound,
who shall prepare himself to the battle?
1 Cor 14:8
*P.S big ups to whoever can complete the title(hint: its from a song )

Monday, August 11, 2008

NEPA in America

see me se trouble and my apartment people o! I came home from work today(mind you, i went straight from the airport to work, so technically i have been up since 5am) and I have no electricity.. and since I have been out of town for days all my food has gone bad. I cant even go and complain because the office is closed.
and no its not because i did not pay my bill...according to my roomie, we are switching electric companies and there is no overlap. The new company is not supposed to take over till mid august(even though I paid for the whole of august). I am soo upset its not even funny... needless to say there shall be an angry black woman at the leasing office tomorrow morning. As in , what nonsense???

Anyhoo this was not the post for today. I had something else planned but I can’t focus so I am going to bed.. Thank God I have family in town so I have somewhere to sleep.

Do everything without complaining or arguing,
so that you may become blameless and pure,
children of God without fault in a crooked and depraved generation,
in which you shine like stars in the universe
Phil 2:14&15

Friday, August 8, 2008

Bye Bye Love spell

I am currently on my way home for my brother’s graduation. I forgot about the stupid no liquids rule and had to throw away my beloved VS body splash..and it was lovespell!!! I am sooo pissed right now but at least they dinna take my expensive perfume…I woulda just cried.

I had quite the birthday, my new coworkers had a mini welcome/birthday party for me and J***** (asterisks assure anonymity) sent me a cake. So, for the first time in my life I had 2 birthday cakes and it just might be 3 cos I think my fam is planning something for when I get home

Talking about my job, I love it so far, my new coworkers are soo nice, my new boss is awesome he gave me time off to go home this weekend even though I just started. I think the best part of the whole deal is I got invited to be part of a Beth Moore bible study every thursday. I absolutely adore Beth Moore

Today is also grade day..i find out my grades for my first semester of graduate school today. I am not too worried abt my management class but accounting, I have no idea…that final was haaaaaaaaaaaard. I have to make at least a B or I will be on academic probation …can you say pressure???

It is my opinion that God is the best artist, the clouds from way up here are just beautiful…I always wondered how they feel..fluffy? solid? Cold? Wet?

This is going to be a GREAT weekend and I can’t wait!!!

VOTD(inspired by my view)
The earth is the LORD's, and everything in it,
the world, and all who live in it;
Psalm 24:1

Wednesday, August 6, 2008

Its a new season

It’s my birthday
And as I look back
I can’t help but be thankful
I have come so far
And it’s all by His grace
I am Happy, I am healthy and I am sane
So here’s to a new year, new experiences,
and new adventures in Him
It’s a celebration people cos I am almost 25
Teach us to number our days aright,
that we may gain a heart of wisdom.
Psalm 90:12

Sunday, August 3, 2008

Dedicated to you

Yea you
My sister from another mister
The one who changes her facebook picture
Every time she logs on
The one who dominates my wall
Every time she writes on it
You are such an outstanding woman of God
Your enthusiasm for life is so contagious
And your passion for Him is truly unparalleled
This year shall be the beginning of greater things for you
Keep doing what you do
The King is enamored by you
And so am I

Happy Birthday, love!!!!!

A man of many companions may come to ruin,
but there is a friend who sticks closer than a brother.
Proverbs 18:24