........

Another gist post!!

I have been studying for six hours straight. I think I am seeing things right now.

I have a cold and sore throat. I think there is something about me and this Texas weather. I have been sick on average once a month since I moved here.

I saw Tyler Perry at church today. He was sitting a few feet from me. I wanted to speak to him so bad. I wanted to say “I’ve seen every one of your movies and plays, I did not too much like Daddy’s little girls. “Why did I get married” changed my life” but of course I did not. It was church and the focus should be on Jesus.

I finally got my picture taken with Barney, this weekend. I Iooove Barney, I think I know every song that the sing on the show. I did not stop actively watching it till I was 16. Yea wateva..,


Funny story, I went to a Nigerian wedding yesterday and the MC (who was absolutely horrible)was trying really hard to be funny.. During the whole bridal bouquet toss, when they called on single ladies. I guess he was dissatisfied with the turnout. He now decided to walk around and pick out the “single” girls. Anyhoo he gets to our table, boyfie was sitting next to me and this is how the dialogue went.

MC dude: How old are you?

Me: (giving him my best withering look) excuse me?

MC dude: (in a very forceful loud voice) I know you! you are single

Me: (now I am looking at him like he’s high on cheap drugs cos I have never seen this man before)err..Actually you don’t

MC Dude: is this your boyfriend?

At this point, I just decided to ignore him; he was forced to move on to his next victim, who turned out to be my ex bf’s ex girlfriend but that’s story for another day.

So now my question is when did it become mandatory to take part in the bouquet toss? As in see me see wahala..

VOTD

Anyone who intends to come with me has to let me lead.

You're not in the driver's seat; I am.

Don't run from suffering; embrace it.

Follow me and I'll show you how.

Self-help is no help at all. Self-sacrifice is the way, my way,

to finding yourself, your true self.

What kind of deal is it to get everything you want but lose yourself?

What could you ever trade your soul for?

Matt 16:24-26(The Message)

Thats how I know that God is Real

Today, a bunch of us bloggers are writing on why we believe in God. The post title is supposed to be “I believe in God’ but I figured I’d do something different plus I like to use song lyrics as my post titles. Although “I believe in God” might be a song lyric somewhere …hmmm. Anyways, I digress.

I believe in God because my life has been a combination of way too many near misses for me to chalk it up to coincidence.

How can I explain the fact that when both my parents where unemployed due to my dad’s illness and we had absolutely NO money, somehow all the bills got paid and we never went hungry for a day

Or how when we lived in Nigeria all the neighbors around us were robbed at gun point twice and our house was the only house on the street that the thieves overlooked?

Or how when the “love of my life” abandoned me when I needed him the most and I honestly believed I was unlovable, random people who I did not even know very well came into my life and gave me the support that I thought I could only get from him.

All these are just a fraction of a fraction of the crazy events that make up my story.

You see, I don’t think I am that special or any different from the people who have been in my exact same situation and did not make it.


I just know that I know that there is a God and he LOVES me tres much!!!

VOTD
if the LORD had not been on our side

when men attacked us,
when their anger flared against us,

they would have swallowed us alive;
the flood would have engulfed us,

the torrent would have swept over us,
the raging waters

would have swept us away.
Praise be to the LORD,

who has not let us be torn by their teeth.
We have escaped like a bird

out of the fowler's snare;

the snare has been broken,

and we have escaped.
Our help is in the name of the LORD,

the Maker of heaven and earth.

Psalm 124:2-8

and her name is me...

WARNING!!!
This is a totally random, maybe pointless post. Proceed at your own risk


I have just spent upwards of 12 hrs in bed.
I managed to do only one of the things I planned to do today and I do not regret it.
I needed the me time, looking at my last posts, I bet it’s been quite obvious that I have not been having the bests of times. I really thought I was going to lose my mind but I think I am over that hump now.

I once heard that sometimes the victory in a battle does not come from winning but rather surviving. I am glad to say I am surviving.

It’s the beginning of another work week and I have mixed feelings about it. My supervisor, whom I absolutely adore, is quitting. Her last day is on Tuesday and I am not looking forward to work without her. On the other hand, I finally get to see my bf, after two weeks! (This is the longest we’ve gone without seeing each other since we met! Lol)

I went to a karaoke bar for the first time last Friday, it was quite an experience, and yes I sang. And no there are no pictures or video. I actually had fun, I think I will do it again…at a different spot though.


It just occurred to me that all my friendships are geographically challenged. The people I’d much rather spend time with are in different states. I guess I have to make new friends or beg my preexisting ones to move. Anyone want to help me beg her to move to Dallas?
I really need to learn friend making skills fast or have God miraculously drop people in my life like Hes been doing so far..


I guess enough randoming for the day, its past my bed time. The VOTD is one of my absolute favoritest bible verses. Once I got the full meaning of the text. It changed my life….no this is not a Christian rhetoric , it really did change my life

VOTD

Whoever has no rule over his own spirit

Is like a city broken down, without walls.

Prov 25:18

aaaah've got a feeling!!

This past week was j one of those why me Lord kinda weeks, you know the ones where so many things go wrong and you begin to ponder your existence. As in, all of a sudden you become deep like you Socrates or something. Asking questions like “what is the purpose of my life? “, “Does God really see me?”

By Thursday I was soooo sad, as in depressed, down in the dumps, horrible to be around , complaining kind of sad. And did I mention I was in physical pain too? I have this horrid toothache (apparently I have a really really bad cavity and I have to have my wisdom teeth pulled)

I could not even find the strengh to pray, I felt very disconnected and abandoned and all I could see were my seeming imposiblities. and oh I worried!

Then I went to church this morning, Well, it started with the song that came on the radio when I got in the car(as you can tell, I have a thing for music, I honestly believe God speaks to me through song)it was declaration by Kirk Franklin, ( if you’ve never heard it, youtube it: Awesome message, awesome lyrics, awesome beat). Listening to this song, I began to feel something bubble up within me, a fight within my spirit. I was like you know what, I REFUSE to lose my mind over temporary circumstances; I refuse to become another bitter depressed female. I refuse to spend valuable time I will never get back wishing and hoping things were different. I WILL get through this.

That put me in the right frame of mind for service, which was off the chain as usual but the best part was at the end of service. You see, my pastor is kinda old school so sometimes he would randomly burst into one of those old gospel songs that they used to sing back in the day. The one he sang today was “I’ve got a feeling, everything is gonna be alright” (you gotta emphasize the “I’ve” like aaaaaaaaaaaaa’ve) and for the first time I truly believed I would be ok.

So right now I am about to start the new week, my circumstances haven’t changed. My insurance still won’t pay for my teeth, my car still is not fixed, I still have a failing grade in one of my classes. But my attitude has definitely changed cos aaaaaaaaaaa’ve got a feeling….

VOTD

This is a faithful saying:

For if we died with Him,We shall also live with Him.

If we endure, We shall also reign with Him.

If we deny Him,He also will deny us.

If we are faithless, He remains faithful;

He cannot deny Himself.

2 Timothy 2:11-13

For Simeon...

Hi! My name is ***** and I am a procrastinator....

I received an honest blogger award from Simeon ages ago and I have been too caught up to do a proper speech and he STILL gave me another award last week.
And may I mention I was at the top of both lists? Yea yea he says it’s in no particular order but I beg to differ.
Anyhoo, in the interest of time, I am going to consolidate (I think I just revealed my profession with that word lol) both speeches into one.















I loooooooooove blogville, it is the best community that I have ever been forced, okay maybe forced is a strong word, greatly encouraged? Yea I think that works. Blogville is the best community I have ever been greatly encouraged to join and I am so glad I allowed myself to be encouraged...

I hereby tag everybody on my blog roll. You know who you is… you all are on my blog roll because I love your blog and I would not love it if I did not think you were honest……How’s that for creativity??? lol

VOTD
6 Now I know that the LORD saves his anointed;
he answers him from his holy heaven
with the saving power of his right hand. Some trust in chariots and some in horses,
but we trust in the name of the LORD our God. They are brought to their knees and fall,
but we rise up and stand firm.
Psalm 20:6-8

Big Girls don’t cry

Oh wow. Its been forever since I came around these parts. Life has been showing me the best and worst it has to offer. You know the point where one part of your life is going so well while another part is completely falling apart? I am so there.

I have so much to talk about but I am trying not to make this a super long post. So I’ll summarize.

First, Mexico gist as I promised. I really have no words to describe what happened over there. We were on a humanitarian missions’ trip so our focus was on helping. We visited this place called shanti(sp?) It is actually a community of homeless people who decide live together in land abandoned by the government. They build houses with anything they can find: Sticks, tires, aluminum. The funny thing is there are many of these communities. One of the ones we visited was actually built on sewer water. Oh the stench!!!



The challenge was to show compassion and not pity because these people had self pride. You could almost hear them say,” don’t feel sorry for me, I have accepted my circumstances”. There were girls with their nails painted and everything.

It takes a lot to make me cry but mehn when I saw a baby with a trash bag as a diaper? Kai that was too much for me.


The Miracles: Our God is awesome, we thought we were going there to witness the transformation of people’s lives but He flipped the script on us. Not one member of our team came back untouched. Not to mention the salvation stories. Each person was asked to share their testimony at different times and after each time there would always be someone who would come up to us and say “what you just shared is exactly what I am going through” it was as if He handpicked us for this purpose.


I am not even going to go into the “little” things God did. I find it quite difficult to pray aloud with people and I am also absolutely terrified of dogs (my bf has a Chihuahua and I am scared of him, that’s how bad it is). So why was my first assignment in Mexico to pray with one lady at the shanti with HUGE dogs running around? I did it!!! I don’t know where the strength came from but it came. I didn’t even notice the dog until I felt the cold nose on my leg and I didn’t scream!!!

This post is already getting long so I’ll stop here.


In other news, I am not trying to take over omosewa's job but these are my personal people. I am so excited for their wedding (my second aso-ebi experience!)


Hope everyone is doing well, I am going to make the rounds soon. I wonder what I have missed :)

VOTD

Each one should test his own actions.

Then he can take pride in himself,

without comparing himself to somebody else,

for each one should carry his own load.

Gal 6:4&5

aaahhh!!!

Yes!! time finally...it feels as if right after i got back from mexico..the pace of my life picked up like crazy. As in, I havent even had time to wash my hair(is that TMI?)
the only reason i can do this now is cos i got out of class early tonight yipee!!!

so much to say, so little time...Mexico was off the hizzy fo shizzy, God showed up like only He could. I will put up pics later, when i get settled.

right now, i will continue the matt 5,6,7 message bible series

This is matt 5:13-16

Let me tell you why you are here. You're here to be salt-seasoning that brings out the God-flavors of this earth. If you lose your saltiness, how will people taste godliness? You've lost your usefulness and will end up in the garbage
Here's another way to put it: You're here to be light, bringing out the God-colors in the world. God is not a secret to be kept. We're going public with this, as public as a city on a hill. If I make you light-bearers, you don't think I'm going to hide you under a bucket, do you? I'm putting you on a light stand. Now that I've put you there on a hilltop, on a light stand—shine! Keep open house; be generous with your lives. By opening up to others, you'll prompt people to open up with God, this generous Father in heaven.

*P.S Simeon thank you for my award..i will do a speechy later when i have more time :)

I hope you Dance....

That’s the title of one very amazing song by Lee Ann Womack (yes,I like country music). YouTube it..its worth the effort. I heard the song and it got me thinking about fear and how it cripples a lot of people(me included)

Countless times I have killed my expectations, telling myself maybe God doesn’t want me to have it when in reality I am really afraid to keep believing. Bishop made a statement on Sunday that cracked me up but the truth in it was really hard to ignore. He was talking about how you meet a 35 yr old single woman and she says “I don’t think I am called to be married” and he goes “I bet you she did not say that when she was 20”. LOLL!!!

How many times have you given up on a dream because it did not happen when you expected it?

Its funny how I am writing about fear and the butterflies in my tummy are doing summersaults..lol. It’s as if they are mocking me :(

I am scared because things are changing rapidly around me and I feel like I don’t have time to catch my breath.
I am also terrified because I do not know what to expect in MX this weekend. I am just believing that God is going to show up in a crazy way!!!

Anyhoo, I have to rush to class now. (I really hope this post made sense cos I seriously did not have time to edit)

VOTD

For the vision is yet for an appointed time,

but at the end it shall speak, and not lie:

though it tarry, wait for it;

because it will surely come, it will not tarry.

( does anyone else see how it says though it tarry but then says it shall not tarry?)

Blessing in the Storm

Apparently there is a storm headed my way..well actually south Texas, it’s been raining all day for 2 days now. As a result, Mexico got postponed which is such a blessing because I am currently sick as a dog. I don’t know how I would have made it if we were still scheduled to leave tonight.

My pastor ( yea the same one from last week) said something that has been stuck with me ever since. He was talking about relationships/friendships, his exact words were “You are in your twenties; you don’t have time for surface relationships anymore” he went on to say that any relationship in which we are afraid to be who we really are has to go, as in deuces, au revoir, bye-bye, peace out!!!

I spent a lot of time yesterday talking to someone about my fear and feelings (which is a first for me) and it felt liberating. I know you are going to read this so I’m saying thanks for being in my life and thank you for my 1 year rule..I don’t know if I’ll follow it sha but anyhooo

I became a huge fan of The Message bible when I read Matthew 5,6,7 in it. I figured I’d post it up here in sections instead of the verse of the day. First up, Matthew 5:3-12 a.k.a The beatitudes.

3"You're blessed when you're at the end of your rope. With less of you there is more of God and his rule.
4"You're blessed when you feel you've lost what is most dear to you. Only then can you be embraced by the One most dear to you.
5"You're blessed when you're content with just who you are—no more, no less. That's the moment you find yourselves proud owners of everything that can't be bought.
6"You're blessed when you've worked up a good appetite for God. He's food and drink in the best meal you'll ever eat.
7"You're blessed when you care. At the moment of being 'care-full,' you find yourselves cared for.
8"You're blessed when you get your inside world—your mind and heart—put right. Then you can see God in the outside world.
9"You're blessed when you can show people how to cooperate instead of compete or fight. That's when you discover who you really are, and your place in God's family.
10"You're blessed when your commitment to God provokes persecution. The persecution drives you even deeper into God's kingdom.
11-12"Not only that—count yourselves blessed every time people put you down or throw you out or speak lies about you to discredit me. What it means is that the truth is too close for comfort and they are uncomfortable. You can be glad when that happens—give a cheer, even!—for though they don't like it, I do! And all heaven applauds. And know that you are in good company. My prophets and witnesses have always gotten into this kind of trouble.

Its all about Capacity

I honestly believe T.D Jakes is one of the greatest preachers of our time. Today’s service was just awesome. I personally marvel at his ability to take a bible verse/story that I’ve heard so many times and make me see something new. We read the story of the Israelites and manna.

The focus was on Exodus 16:17&18
Then the children of Israel did so and gathered, some more, some less.

So when they measured it by omers,

he who gathered much had nothing left over,

and he who gathered little had no lack.

Every man had gathered according to each one’s need

The point of the story was that everyone had their need met. If it took six loaves of manna to satisfy a man, then six is what he got. If it took half a loaf then half is what he got. God does not overstuff us with his provisions. He gives you just as much as you need to be satisfied.


So the question is how hungry are you? What will it take to satisfy you? Are you a half loafer or a six loafer?

This means that when next I see someone with six loaves, I don't need to get envious or jealous because I only have half a loaf, I need to get HUNGRY!

So today, I vow to increase my capacity and get hungry. I intend to stop limiting God and realize that He is bigger than anything I can ever think or imagine.


* P.S This probably my last post before Mexico, this weekend. Please pray that everything goes well and also for the people we will be ministering to.

I am a superwoman

I am a superwoman.
Yes I am
Yes she is
Even when I’m a mess
I still put on a vest
With an S on my chest
Oh yes
I’m a Superwoman

I heard that song on the radio, this weekend and I could not stop thinking about how true it is. No matter what it is we are going through, life goes on. The world does not stop because I am depressed or lonely or broke. I still have to fulfill my daily obligations. How annoying is that?


Man, church on Friday was awesome. My pastor always says “someone is going to be delivered tonight” whenever he really gets into the word. I think last Friday was my day of deliverance. I have to do a whole post on that sermon real soon. The best part of the sermon was when he said that we, as young adults need to be delivered from the false believe that we will ever get to a place in our life where everything will be just perfect. The reason why Paul says in the New Testament that we will be seated in heavenly places with our Father is because we don’t get to take a seat on earth…our Christian walk is meant to be a continuous process/journey to get to our destination so it’s supposed to be full of ups and downs.


In other news, I went to my first traditional wedding where I was a “friend of the bride” we even had aso ebi and alla that. My nigeiranness was seriously challenged. First I got the gele and I was like err what am I supposed to do with it? Thank God for one lady that helped me tie it. The other part was when we had to dance as the bride was coming out, I donno how to dance so I just looked awkward in the line as everybody else was dancing.

Here is a picture of my gele..i haven’t decided if I am going to be an anonymous blogger yet so I will take the pic down after a while( wateva, Jaycee)

This week marks the beginning of the fall TV season. wohooo!!(See my life?)

VOTD

A wise man fears and departs from evil,

But a fool rages and is self-confident.

Prov 14:16

Freedom Friday

I just realized

I am addicted to the internet. I was without internet for the past 2 days and I honestly did not know what to do with myself.

This weekend is going to be quite busy with a lot of social activity.
I have no intention of doing any school work this weekend and I kind of feel sorry for myself
I need time management skills or I am going to be in some serious trouble this semester
People in blogville are kinda cool. All these people that I don’t know offering me words of kindness…yaay for the body of Christ
I am growing up..The things that used to bother me don’t even faze me anymore..God is good
I have to return a bunch of calls this weekend or I am going to be minus three or four friends..forgive me guys

I like being a blogger, it’s a whole new world and I am learning so much plus my writing is getting much better..I hope

My favorite love songs are the ones about heart break; you know the ones where you can feel the singer’s pain. As in, you are right there with her. You almost want to ask Whitney/Mariah/Toni (whoever it is at the moment), “Girl, how you know my ex?”

I have to work out this weekend. This weight gain is no longer funny

Two weeks from today, at this exact time, I will be in Reynosa doing the work of my Father. yeaaaaaah!

VOTD(Thanks Uzezi)

Since you are precious and honored in my sight,

and because I love you,

I will give men in exchange for you,

and people in exchange for your life.

Isaiah 43:4

I get down, He lifts me up

Every time I hear that song it makes me feel 6 years old all over again. I almost want to get up and do the dance. Anyhoo, I am feeling much better today. I reread yesterday’s post and I am like wow, I was in a pretty dark place. I am almost tempted to delete the post but I won’t cos it will defeat the purpose of this blog.

Yesterday was the first time I publicly admitted that I had mood issues and boy am I glad I did. I feel more equipped and ready to fight this thing. In the words of Kirk Franklin “I am ready for the fight of my life”

So yea , bring it on.....

VOTD

But You, O LORD, are a shield for me,

My glory and the One who lifts up my head.

Psalm 3:3

Sometimes life aint so good...

This has been a very strange weekend. I really do not understand these past 48 hours. I started off this weekend being extremely excited for my first missions meeting. The meeting went well but then after that I don’t know what happened and I just started feeling really really down. Actually I do know what happened, I got attacked..and no I am not one of those overly spiritual people that blame the devil for everything, but I am wise enough to recognize an attack when I see one. I have this cloud over me that I cannot explain along with this overwhelming feeling of loneliness that’s just sapping away my energy. I couldn’t even make it to church this morning and I stayed in bed till 6pm. The problem with being in this kind of mood is that It begins to affect you physically. I started to feel sick. I finally decided to get up and go grocery shopping since all I had in my fridge was cheese and on my way back from the store, I heard this song on the radio and I just lost it. So here I am in the middle of traffic with meat and plantain in my backseat and tears streaming down my face and I have no idea why.

The reason why I know this is an attack is I have no reason to be sad. On the contrary, I should be excited, it’s the first week of the fall semester, I am much closer to my second degree. Also, in about 3 weeks, I will be standing in Mexico doing something I have always wanted to do and experiencing God in a whole new way. So why am I sad? The thing is, I struggle with mood swings and I guess I am having one of my episodes. I don’t like it, I am working through it, and I definitely believe I will be free of it but until such a time as that occurs, I have no choice but to ride it through.

VOTD
I will be glad and rejoice in your love,

for you saw my affliction

and knew the anguish of my soul.

PS 31:7

Tea without Sugar

I am on a diet and I don’t know how that happened. It all started when I went to put on my favorite pair of jeans and they won’t button up. Did I mention it was at 6.30am and I was getting ready for work? I had to think up a new outfit in under 5 mins. I was seriously vexed in my spirit.

The goal is seven pounds by the end of august. So here’s to lots of sugarless green tea and little to no carbs. Fuuuuuuuuun

I personally think the Olympics are a collection of life lessons. Every competitor has a story that I believe is just there to make you reflect. My favorite story is Dara Torres, the 41 year old swimming champion (who, by the way, went to my Alma mater, Go Gators!!!). During her interview, she made a statement that resonated within my spirit; “You can’t put a time limit on your dreams” and how true is that? God is the only one that knows the whens and hows and I need to fully trust Him.

Its the last week before the fall semester starts which means Christmas is coming yaaay!!! Which reminds me, someone needs to figure out what she’s doing over thanksgiving break so I can figure out what I am doing

I am really not a fan of rap but I love Lecrae and the 116 clique. (116 is Romans 1:16), every song is a like a mini sermon. Amazing!!

This is going to be awesome week because God says so!!

VOTD

For ye have need of patience, that,

after ye have done the will of God,

ye might receive the promise.

Hebrews 10:36

How u gonna win...

Today was a good day. First, I finally saw my grades and I did great, so I guess they won’t be kicking me out anytime soon..lol .
Second, I came back to my apartment and my power was back. Yaay!!!. I just had a spring in my step all day and it got me thinking....

Why is my outlook on life so dependent on external circumstances?

I mean, I have just been in a mood these past couple of days all because things were not going my way. Snapping at people, screening calls (my personal favorite whenever I sulk). I even refused to return a couple of calls because I did not “feel like it”.

A few months ago, I decided to work on becoming a person of integrity; letting my yes be yes and no be no, obviously these moods don’t help matters. The worst part is trying to explain to all these people why I did not keep to my word *sigh*

I definitely need to do better. My actions are not lining up with my words. I tell people God is in control yet I don’t believe it. Cos you see, if I TRULY believed it, I would not be fazed by the little things.

I guess the revelation for the day is that I really need to stop talking about it and start being about it..

VOTD

For if the trumpet give an uncertain sound,

who shall prepare himself to the battle?

1 Cor 14:8

*P.S big ups to whoever can complete the title(hint: its from a song )

NEPA in America

see me se trouble and my apartment people o! I came home from work today(mind you, i went straight from the airport to work, so technically i have been up since 5am) and I have no electricity.. and since I have been out of town for days all my food has gone bad. I cant even go and complain because the office is closed.
and no its not because i did not pay my bill...according to my roomie, we are switching electric companies and there is no overlap. The new company is not supposed to take over till mid august(even though I paid for the whole of august). I am soo upset its not even funny... needless to say there shall be an angry black woman at the leasing office tomorrow morning. As in , what nonsense???

Anyhoo this was not the post for today. I had something else planned but I can’t focus so I am going to bed.. Thank God I have family in town so I have somewhere to sleep.

VOTD

Do everything without complaining or arguing,

so that you may become blameless and pure,

children of God without fault in a crooked and depraved generation,

in which you shine like stars in the universe

Phil 2:14&15

Bye Bye Love spell

I am currently on my way home for my brother’s graduation. I forgot about the stupid no liquids rule and had to throw away my beloved VS body splash..and it was lovespell!!! I am sooo pissed right now but at least they dinna take my expensive perfume…I woulda just cried.

I had quite the birthday, my new coworkers had a mini welcome/birthday party for me and J***** (asterisks assure anonymity) sent me a cake. So, for the first time in my life I had 2 birthday cakes and it just might be 3 cos I think my fam is planning something for when I get home

Talking about my job, I love it so far, my new coworkers are soo nice, my new boss is awesome he gave me time off to go home this weekend even though I just started. I think the best part of the whole deal is I got invited to be part of a Beth Moore bible study every thursday. I absolutely adore Beth Moore

Today is also grade day..i find out my grades for my first semester of graduate school today. I am not too worried abt my management class but accounting, I have no idea…that final was haaaaaaaaaaaard. I have to make at least a B or I will be on academic probation …can you say pressure???

It is my opinion that God is the best artist, the clouds from way up here are just beautiful…I always wondered how they feel..fluffy? solid? Cold? Wet?

This is going to be a GREAT weekend and I can’t wait!!!

VOTD(inspired by my view)
The earth is the LORD's, and everything in it,

the world, and all who live in it;
Psalm 24:1

Its a new season

It’s my birthday
And as I look back
I can’t help but be thankful
I have come so far
And it’s all by His grace
I am Happy, I am healthy and I am sane
So here’s to a new year, new experiences,
and new adventures in Him
It’s a celebration people cos I am almost 25
wohoooo!!!!!

VOTD

Teach us to number our days aright,

that we may gain a heart of wisdom.

Psalm 90:12

Dedicated to you

Yea you
My sister from another mister
The one who changes her facebook picture
Every time she logs on
The one who dominates my wall
Every time she writes on it
You are such an outstanding woman of God
Your enthusiasm for life is so contagious
And your passion for Him is truly unparalleled
This year shall be the beginning of greater things for you
Keep doing what you do
The King is enamored by you
And so am I

Happy Birthday, love!!!!!

VOTD

A man of many companions may come to ruin,

but there is a friend who sticks closer than a brother.

Proverbs 18:24

Friday!!!

Friday has got to be my absolute favoritest day ever.. Not only is it the end of the school/work week. I also get to terc and do brickhouse. I don’t know if it’s possible to be addicted to spiritual experiences but I think I am there. There is this kind of high I get after service that makes me just yearn for the next week.


Sooo the book of Obadiah was read yesterday. Pretty hardcore stuff I gotta say. Its twenty one verses on how God is going to destroy the people of Edom because they messed with the Israelites. I mean like detailed descriptions of each single calamity that is going to befall them. I was quite excited when I got to verse 17 near then end and it said

But upon mount Zion shall be deliverance,

and there shall be holiness;

and the house of Jacob shall possess their possessions.

I vividly remember this verse from when I was growing up. It was always used to illustrate how God always steps in and restores what the enemy has stolen. It made sense in my head. This book is there to let me know, in great detail if I might add, how God is the ultimate deliverer.

So imagine my surprise when I read the summary thing that my bible gives and it said this book was a lesson about pride. Say what? Apparently the Edomites were prideful and God was trying to show them that He was actually the One in control.

This got me thinking about how many times I read a bible story and automatically assume the position of the protagonist. Nobody reads the story of David and thinks they are the Goliath…Or the Judas. It just never happens.

I guess the lesson in this is to not be so one sided about everything. I need to get in the habit of objectively examining my “issues”. It is very possible I might not be as “innocent” as I think.

Arbitrary thots....

Sooo I guess I lied, yesterday was actually a one post kind of day.

It turned out to be a good day; I visited my cousin who I had not seen in years. I got to meet his wife and kids for the first time. Everything was fine until his 6 year old daughter went “aunty, when are you getting married?” even the little children too??? *sigh*

I think I just witnessed my first real life domestic violence episode. My roomie and her bf were having an argument. The boy was livid, as in, you needed to hear how he was yelling, even got me scared in my bedroom. I was so ready to dial that 911 the minute I heard stuff flying. Chut! I don’t play.

Talking about my roommate, that’s how last night I was in my room, she was in the living room with her friends. Next thing, I heard a knock on my door. I thought it was her so I was like “come in” I see this dude standing in my door all smiles, and I go “err hello?” he replies “ I just wanted to introduce myself, I heard you were Nigerian I am Nigerian too” mind you, I was in bed in my short shorts and my 2 dollar satin sleep cap looking all kinds of a hot mess. Mehn! I felt so violated.

I finally turned in my application for Mexico. So it’s semi-official. I am going on a mission’s trip! I am mucho excited. It’s off to borders, today, to get a ‘Spanish for travelers book” I can’t wait to see the awesome things that God is going to do…ahhhh!!!

Verse of the Day

We know that we have passed from death to life,

because we love our brothers.

Anyone who does not love remains in death.

1 John 3:14

Happy week before Birthday to me

Today seems like a two post kind of day. I think its because I have a lot of time on my hands seeing as I don’t start work till next Monday. ( the day before my birthday , if I might add)
So I was reading lamentations 3(I am doing this thing where I read the non-popular books in the bible. I want to know what Nahum, Obadiah, Habakkuk , Zephaniah and the like have to say to me)Anyways, As I was saying, I came across this bible verse.

Lamentations 3:23
Who can speak and have it happen
if the Lord has not decreed it.

It was as if I had a new revelation because, you see, every time my birthday approaches I get into these moods where I start reflecting err moaning about my life. You know, the typical woeisme nobody knows the troubles I’ve seen kind of reflection.

This verse opened my eyes to the fact that even though I can attribute all my troubles to physical things like the government, the economy, my parents, the people that hurt me, the teacher that did not round up my final grade so I could not get into the grad program I wanted. NONE of these things happened without the express approval of God, as in, He allowed these things happen. This realization just floored me. I especially knew God was trying to tell me something when the next verse I read, in an entirely different book, I might add had this to say

Seek the peace and prosperity of the city

to which I have carried you into exile.

Pray to the Lord for it, because if it prospers,

you too will prosper. Jeremiah 29:7

I just knew I had to stop my “reflecting” and start praising. God orchestrated the series of events that led to my present situation and He wants me to flourish therein. How deep is that? So today is the day I have decided to be fully present in the present, not thinking of the past or waiting on the future. Just living each day as it comes by faith.

I am not my hair

I was bored and decided to do one of those online quiz thingys. Quite an awesome way to pass time if you ask me. I also had a few good laughs.
soo here we go:


Put Your iTunes/ Music player on Shuffle. For each question, press the next button to get your answer. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER WHAT

IF SOMEONE SAYS “IS THIS OKAY” YOU SAY?
Karma Alicia keys
(very true…I do believe in Karma)

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Imagine me Kirk Franklin
(sooo on point..wow does this really work?)

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Moving Mountains Usher
(no comments)

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Its going down T.R.U.E.L.I.F.E

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE’S PURPOSE?
You are living word Fred Hammond

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Still in Love by Kirk Franklin
(ok this game is getting scary)

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
One night only dream girls soundtrack
(Ooook??? Maybe cos I moved away?)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Some random dbanj song, I think its called funk e up?
(LOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL)

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN
God’s got it all in control by Tamela mann/kurt carr
(this is what I say when I worry and I do worry a lot so I guess its true)

WHAT IS 2+2?
Didn’t it rain by Donald Lawrence
(err no idea)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
A thousand pains by Vickie winans/prezence
(woww!!!)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
The One by India Arie
(chei!!! …I don’t like anyone right now so I guess no need to get nervous)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Kissing a fool by Michael Buble
(*sigh* no need to even explain further)

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Thankful by Mary Mary
(Very true)

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Suga mama by beyonce
(LOLLLLLL)

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Quando Quando Qaundo by Michael Buble
( I can see that…)

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
No weapon by Fred Hammond
(Amen!!!!!!)

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Oh Thou Most High by Cece Winans

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
E don Happen by P square

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Wait By lecrae
(OMG!!!!!...this is like my own personal palm reading)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Summer Wind by Michael Buble
(true true.. seeing as my friends are all far away)

WHAT SHOULD YOU POST THIS AS?
I am not my hair by india Arie

I'm here.....

I hear writing is therapeutic so i am here to find out for my self.

I think I am in a good place to start a blog.

New city, new job, new school, new friends??? ( not too sure about that yet)

I am not the world's best writer so expect run-on sentences, bad punctuation e.t.c
This is going to be fun!!!!! (i hope)

Verse of the Day
Lamentation 3:22
Because of the LORD's great love we are not consumed
for his compassions never fail.